Keep your eyes on Me

Matthew 14:22-33 (NIV)

Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.

Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear. But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

Infertility and trial can be a lot like this.Think of the times when you get that big negative. Your mind starts to swirl — days earlier you were standing strong, ready to receive whatever the Lord hands you and give Him great glory with your strength — then suddenly you’re getting washed away by a million What ifs and thoughts of next steps and steps after that. You’re just like Peter, getting out of the boat and walking towards the Lord, then getting distracted by the wind and starting to sink.

heb12Or maybe you’re not, but I definitely am. And in these moments I think I literally (and yes, I know what literally means) hear the voice of Jesus say, “Keep your eyes on Me.” I think back to Hebrews 12, the chapter right after Hebrews 11, which is all about having real faith, when we are urged, “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses [i.e. those people in chapter 11], let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.”

And I hear Him again and again: Keep your eyes on Me.

…But what if we have to find money to do another round of this?

Keep your eyes on Me.

…But what if we have to save for adoption? 

Keep your eyes on Me.

…But what if we have fewer kids than we wanted?

Keep your eyes on Me.

 …But what if there is no cure for this?

Keep your eyes on Me.

Keep your eyes on Me.

Keep your eyes on Me.

chronI actually find myself, sometimes several times a day, listening to that command and redirecting my thoughts, sometimes physically correcting my gaze to look straight ahead. I often hear Him add, “Don’t look to the right or to the left,” and it’s reminiscent of God’s leading Joshua after Moses died, “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:7-9).

I hope the next time the winds start to overwhelm and distract you, you can hear and obey the voice of Jesus saying,

Keep your eyes on Me.

Keep your eyes on Me.

Keep your eyes on Me.

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